I have not written in almost 2 months! How time flies :) A LOT has happened in the last two months. After the door finally closed for the military, I had the opportunity to go spend a month with my sister. Meanwhile, the hubby had the opportunity to help out his old boss for a few weeks in Florida, too! A kidney stone, covid, and a call...
that Dustin got a great full time job, and here we are. Life is back to normal. Dustin has started his new job, and I'm back to my blog. I do love a good routine. Like I've mentioned before, one of the hardest things about a person who gets depression or anxiety is that it is easy to get in a rut and stay there. To drag yourself out of bed and do what needs to be done (and do it well) to get out of it takes focus. Determination. Work. If you aren't willing to do the work to get out of your funk, expect to stay there.
I don't believe that God will always "meet you where you are" as many like to say. Psalm 34:4-8 says, "I sought the LORD, and he answered me and delivered me from all my fears. Those who look to Him are radiant, and their faces shall never be ashamed. This poor man cried, and the LORD heard him and saved him out of all his troubles. The angel of the LORD encamps around those who fear him, and delivers them. Oh, taste and see that the LORD is good! Blessed is the man who takes refuge in him!" If you are NOT trying to get out of the rut, why should He do it for you? Take that first step, or two, or three, and He WILL meet you there. Matthew 7:7-8 says, “Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives, and the one who seeks finds, and to the one who knocks it will be opened."
I used to feel overly guilty about who I am. Why I am the way I am. But, like 2 Corinthians 12:7b-10 says, "...a thorn was given me in the flesh, a messenger of Satan to harass me, to keep me from becoming conceited. Three times I pleaded with the Lord about this, that it should leave me. But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong." All of us have something that we are going to struggle with that makes us human. That we have to WORK on giving it over to God. I know for me it is anxiety/fear/depression. I know for others it is "addiction", "attitude", "discontentment", "narcism", "pride", "self-worth", "being in control", etc. What do you have to continually hand over to God? Know that it doesn't make Him love you less :)
So, anytime you see me without any, fear, depression, or anxiety, know that it is GOD :) If it were left to me, and my fleshly self, you would not see anything good out of me. To which I want to add, if you aren't seeing anything good come out of me, whether it be on the blog, facebook, at church, etc. Send up a prayer for me, wouldn't hurt. I thank God for the many people I have that pray for me when they think of me. James 5:16 says, "Confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous person is powerful and effective.”